Tell or not to tell?!

I'm always torn between wanting to tell my story to everyone and let them know exactly what is in my head or keeping it to myself. The problem is being outwardly unhappy and consistently so pushes people away, no matter if they say they're always there to listen, there is only so much your best friends can listen to. On the other hand, to pretend that everything is fine is to poison yourself from the inside out; it is to ignore who you are and lose yourself. So which is better? To have friends that think you are melodramatic, seeking attention and pessimistic or to drown in your own mind?

Randomly me..

I always believe in myself- the vision of my future keep my dreams alive despite the challenges along the way. I always told myself not to be afraid of changes, grow and learn as I go. Whatever it is, we always move ahead with confidence and always reach forward not backwards.

Should always look forward to challenge the impossible and risk oneself to the limits as opportunities are just endless. Never quit until you win as we all have greatness within us. We just got to nurture it with Hope and Passion and there will be nothing we can't do.

I know there are maybe times when things aren't the way we hope it to be and we feel like just giving up. Always tell yourself to "NEVER QUIT". When things go wrong as they sometimes will, when the funds are low and the debts are high and when you want to smile but you have to sigh. -- Rest if you must but don't back down and don't you quit.. You can never tell how close you are, it may be near when it seems far. Just stick to the fight even when you're hit to the hardest and always remember that you really mustn't QUIT.

Be positive always to not giving up so easily even before you try. Nothing is really over until you stop trying. Remember never say it's impossible even the word "IMPOSSIBLE" says "I.M.POSSIBLE". So, nothing can really stop us from being positive. I had a lot of ups and downs throughout my life so does each and every human being in the whole wide World. But come to think of it, we just have to always confront and transform all these obstacles into opportunities. Always believe in working hard towards our future and take a step at a time to reach the goals. Do what works best for you and be hopeful as you embrace each moment. My happiness is in my own hands.... for if I keep staying positive, I BELIEVE I can make my dream come true.

Rest assured, I always follow my heart. What I do with my life is my own choice. How I decide to live my life and achieve my goals is always up to me. I'm the key decision maker of my own life. Always be confident and have a strong sense of purpose. I'm doing my best to work extremely hard towards my goals. I never consider the idea of failing. Erm* Maybe at times. lolx.

But most of all, I know who am I and I understand my weakness as well as my strong points. I won't be afraid to be a little different. What I do is; I just follow my heart to the path of my dreams. You may then find that what seem so difficult has just been made RIGHT. :)

So, dare to fail and dare to dream. Opportunities are in our hands. Have faith in yourself and always believe that one day you can and will surely achieve. Keep your dreams alive; reach out and take hold of today!

YOU are "YOU"

I've always wonder...

Nearly all rich and powerful people are not notably talented, educated, charming or good-looking.

This people become rich and powerful by wanting to be rich and powerful.

The vision of where or who you want to be is the greatest asset you have.

Without having a GOAL it's difficult to score.

So, ask yourself; why do we want to strive for excellence? Is this really important to us?

If yes, how good do you want to be then?

- Quite good
- Good
- Very Good
- Best
- The Very Best

But, have you noticed how the cleverest people at school are not those who make it in life? (Which is very true rite.)

As long as the goal is there, there is no limit to anyone's achievement. So be it, if you are the top achiever in school, if you don't have goals, clear goals in mine. I can say , 80% of you wouldn't succeed. (Just part of my theory)

I've heard a lot of people telling me that, I'll do this and I'll do that if I had the chance. Enough with the "What If".. Stop thinking about it. Whatever it is.. just don't look for the next opportunity. The one you have in hand is the opportunity... We are always waiting for the perfect thing to come. But it almost never happens.

Let me give you an example on this; You're probably working on a project or assignment right now and saying, "This is nothing important and let's just deal with it and get it over with. We'll make the next one good." Whatever you are doing right now, that's the one. Make it the best you possibly can. It may not be great, but at least you'll have the satisfaction of knowing you did the best you possibly could and you may learn something from it.

Opportunities are everywhere. Don't look so far ahead first, it is just the reach of your hands in front of you. So grab it while it's still there. Like what Author Paul Arden said; "It's not how good you are, It's how good you want to be". If you don't have plans and do not have goals, whatever opportunities comes, you will end up losing it.

Always remember this; there's no one night success. People fail, Powerful and Rich people fail before too. 'You fail, and fail again' It doesn't matter. The person who doesn't make mistakes is unlikely to make anything. Benjamin Franklin have had 10,000 ideas that didn't work. But did he failed? Yes. But just look at him, he made history. Isn't he famous? Yes, very famous indeed. Benjamin Franklin understood one theory which he believes that failures and false starts are a precondition of success. Failure was a major contributor to its success. So, in another word, you just got to fail before you succeed. "Learn from your MISTAKES, eventually you'll play your cards right after that".

Well, Success is going from failure to failure with no loss of enthusiasm. You just got to keep the fire in you fired up and whatever it is, you got to draw the line somewhere too. Right? It's always better to fail in originality, than to succeed in imitation. So, strive on y'all. :)

How Poor People Live

I read this great short story I received via email few days ago. Perhaps this story will give us a more refreshing perspective on how brilliant life truly is.

One day the father of a rich family took his young son on a business trip to the countryside purpose of showing him how poor people can be. They spent a day and a night at the farm of a very poor family.

When they got back from their trip the father asked his son, "How was the trip?"
His son replied. "Very good, Dad"
"Did you see how poor people can be?" the father asked.
"Yeah," the son quickly replied.
The father then asked, "And what did you learn?"
The son answered, "I saw that we only have one dog at home and they have four. We have a pool that only reaches to the middle of the garden; they have a creek that has no end. We have imported lamps in the garden; they have the moon and all the stars. Our patio only reaches to the front yard, they have the whole horizon."

When the boy was finished, his father was speechless. His son added, "Thanks dad for showing me how poor we are."

Isn't it true it all depends on the way you look things? If you have love, friends, family, health, good humor and a positive attitude towards life.. you've got everything! You can't buy any of these things. You can have all the material possessions you can imagine, provisions for the future, etc. etc. But if you are poor of spirit, then you have absolutely nothing.

"What If"

So what if...

Your favorite football team lost again and this time was at the hands of a more lowly ranked opposition... so what? You were planning a picnic today, but now there is a cold wind and is pouring with rain... so what? You just finish washing your car, the next thing you know a bird fly pass and drop a fresh poo on to your now shiny machine... so what? Your friend has spilled his or her coffee on your clean and freshly ironed new shirt, just as you were having a drink with him or her at the coffee shop nearby... so what? The trip that you've planned for so long got to be canceled; the car model that you were planning to buy next year has stopped manufacturing; the department store has run out of your size in those jeans that you've long ed for... so what?

So what?! So What?! SO WHAT?!

LIGHTEN UP!! These things are NOT important. It is mostly just a little anger, a little not satisfied, and a little thinking and it is definitely a waste of your time and your energy on it. Haha. Actually why don't we just face it. Have a good laugh on it. It really would be a funny sight to see, don't you think? Imagine that. :)

Simple Letters

My friend forwarded this to me, check this out;

LIFE - 4 simple letters, yet so complicated
LOVE - 4 simple letters, yet so confusing
DESTINY - 7 simple letters, yet so unpredictable
FEELINGS - 8 simple letters, yet so unexplainable
WORDS - 5 simple letters, yet there aren't enough to express
REGRETS - 6 simple letters, yet they never seem to disappear
SILENCE - 7 simple letters, yet it can be so loud
TIME - 4 simple letters, yet there is never enough
SADNESS - 7 simple letters, yet it lingers everywhere
PAIN - 4 simple letters, yet it takes so long to heal
MISTAKES- 8 simple letters, yet they can never be erased
BEAUTY - 6 simple letters, yet so hard to see

Ain't this true.. xD

The person I am..

My life is passing by too fast to enjoy it I guess.. When I leave I will be homesick. But I think I'll miss so much to make me felt heartsick. I'll also miss the people who left a hand print on my heart and also the ones who threw me away and made me stronger. I know that friends come and go so quickly to even say I miss you. And yet I'm the person who loved too much and got nothing in return. Well, that's me and that's life!

STOP...

Stop...... Stop thinking already! Just tell that voice to "Shut the fcuk up and listen for a while!" You should know who I mean, right? He is the voice with all the answers. The voice that knows everything, the voice that has an opinion on everything and is never wrong! He is the voice you are listening to right now. Can you hear him? Yes It's your inner voice. And I would like to call him as Mr. Inneryuh...

Mr. Inneryuh is the voice in your head. He never ever shuts up and you can hear him all the time. Your relationship with him is unique and personal. He's your closest friend, your constant guide and sometimes your worst enemy. He has been educated by you and also taken lessons from whoever or whatever that had been appeared in your life; family, friends, colleagues, relatives, partner, television, Internet, radio, newspapers, movies, books and etc. His one and only, but extremely influential skill is to constantly regurgitate information he has received.

Mr. Inneryuh may speak loudly and decisively but he has no set of opinions, values and morals. However, he directs your knowledge, your fears, your desires, your passions and your opinions to be used always as his training. We always describe him as our thinking or something related to it. Mr. Inneryuh is always available to learn new stuff, as you grows he grows and when you have the opportunity to change his education, you'll change what he says to you. I guess we have to spent all of our life to develop Mr. Inneryuh and part of it should be good and some part of it should be not.

There is a saying that states, "If you continue to do what you have always done, you will continue to be who you have always been!" And "If you continue to think in the way you have always thought, you will continue to feel as you have always felt." In order to change the way you feel, you need to change the way you think. This means, we need to start re-educate Mr. Inneryuh and your life might never be the same again!

Setting GOALs

Goals are important! I guess everyone knows that to be true. There would hardly be a single person over the age of 5, anywhere on this planet, who has not set at least one goal. I have set thousand of goals! Haven't you?

Setting goals is EASY! But achieving it is an entirely different matter.

If you are nodding, as you sigh disappointingly in memory of your many unachieved goals, take heart... even the greatest achievers of this world have set goals and not attained them. The truth is, setting a goal and failing to achieve it, is not necessarily a failure at all. Instead by actually having a goal is truly a great start. But first we need to define our goals.

In defining each goal...

To know what you want.

To know when you want it.

To describe why you want it.

Have a basic idea of how you are going to reach the goal.

After defining it, write all the details of your goal on a card.

Read the card over and over again, many times each day, until your goal has been realized.

Do it for a day and when you get to the end of the day, decide to do it for another day. After you have done it for a week, do it for another week, a month, a year, a lifetime.

However, completing your goals in all areas of your live will greatly assist in developing a stronger belief in how brilliant you truly are.

Goals give us a purpose. they give us a target. Goals allow us to become more enthusiastic about where we are headed. It gives me purpose with passion and it motivates me. It does not matter one little but as to whether or not I achieve that goal. If I only make it half way, the result will still be wonderful.

Imagine this, what if you could wake up everyday with a hand on your heart, honest to goodness, absolutely genuine feeling and belief that YOU ARE GREAT, YOU ARE BRILLIANT, YOU ARE JUST FANTASTIC? Yes, you can.. I can.. REALLY can.

Just feel free to take the goal for your own. Choose it for yourself. Start each day with a routine commitment of standing in front of the mirror before you leave your home and say to the reflection you see...

"You are to have a fantastic day, because... YOU ARE GREAT!"

Selamat Hari Raya

Wishing all muslims friends SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL FITRI!

Travel safe, enjoy all the glorious food and have a great "Balik Kampung" spirit.

To all others, HAPPY HOLIDAY. :)

"As a man thinketh in his heart"

King Solomon wrote a proverb which said, "As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he". It's not gender specific, it applies to men and women alike. Simply put, it says, "How you feel about yourself - in your heart of hearts, in the quiet inner recesses of the private and personal you, the thoughts and feelings you have from time to time - THAT IS WHO YOU REALLY ARE! And what YOU think about you is, without doubt, the most important opinion of all. Praise and encouragement from others can certainly benefit your self image, but it is what you think that matters most.

Endurance

I always envy that some people have the endurance muscles. These people are able to exert themselves and go for a very long distances for a period of time.

I guess I really need to train well on my endurance in order to get physically fit. I also need to get my stamina back on track. When it comes to exercising. In fact I would rather do more on my cardio then lifting weights.

I am challenging myself to have a 5KM non-stop run in 30 minutes. Giving myself a one month training on that. I hope that I can overcome the challenge. Not the fastest time tho' but I will increase by time. I seriously need lots of motivation for me to run.

I hope I train well on it. I am focusing more on how to help boost my stamina and learn to endure. And not just endure, but to endure with joy. I must say I stink at endurance, but what I need is just patience and faith at the moment. Well, at least i am still pushing forward so that should count for something right?

September by Daughtry

It's the September month tho'. Dedicate this song to all September babies. :)

Who is "ME"

Who am I?

i am an ordinary guy, an average joe, a freelancer, a music lover, a son , a brother, a friend and a whole slew of other things. do any one of these things define me more than any other?

No.

They work together to make me the magical person that i am. i am just kidding, but honestly each of these parts of me define me.

There is a part of getting older that is amazing, and that is self-actualiztion. realizing that who you are is not dependent on any outside forces. i cannot allow anyone else define my worth and value. i cannot allow others to diminish who and what i am, neither can i allow any of the labels control me. i only wish that i knew this as much when i was in high school when i needed it the most.

i'm not the extraordinary person i know, nor the best son, brother or friend. there is always someone who is a better son, sibling, friend or leader. i know i have my own mission in this life. i know that no matter what people say, think or feel about me that i have a purpose. a calling or a divine nature. i am not perfect, great or even good for that matter, but in the end i am who I am. a man that desire much.

i'm proud to be the person who doesn't really write well or speak good and who always gets in trouble for plowing through life, but i am who i am. at least for now. but i know i will change again, someday.

i love this quote by ralph waldo emerson

" To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment"

It's up to YOU

One song can spark a moment,

One flower can wake the dream.

One tree can start a forest,

One bird can herald spring.

One smile begins a friendship,

One handclasp lifts a soul.

One star can guide a ship at sea,

One word can frame the goal.

One vote can change the nation,

One sunbeam lights a room.

One candle wipes out darkness,

One laugh will conquer gloom.

One step must start each journey,

One word must start each prayer.

One hope will raise our spirits,

One touch can show you care.

One voice can speak with wisdom,

One heart can know what's true.

One life can make the difference,

You see, it's just up to YOU!

Wondering

While you are reading this, I just want you to think back when you were in high school or after leaving high school. What type of personality did you have? What kind of person you are? Are you a better person or worse?

I've been wondering about this lately because I remember having so much energy and enthusiasm. I remember feeling like I could do anything. However, I have to note some good changes about me that have come with maturity. I guess I am more mellow now and I feel like part of my terrible temper is gone. I am more comfortable with myself and able to control myself better against negativity.

And now, I have decided to stick on being as mellow as possible and as happy I can. I'm enjoying being that now. I enjoy learning how to be a better person, a better son, brother and friend everyday. But I just need to do more. I'm working out on having a better positive outlook as well. I want to work more on my enthusiasm for life and to shine forth my personality.

So, my hope is that I can work on these outlooks and really start to enjoy my life with great passion and enthusiasm. But most of all, I got to be HAPPY about it. That's me and that's what life gonna be. :)

Thoughts About LIFE

A short walk is so difficult,
when no one walks with you.
But a long journey is just like few steps
when you walk with someone
who loves and cares for you.

We always look and care for the person
whom we love the most.
But we fail to look back at those
who love us the most.

Death’s not the greatest loss in life..
The greatest loss is when
relationships die inside us while
we are still alive...

Life is not about the people
who act true to your face..
Its about the people who
remain true behind your back..

Time decides whom you meet in life…
Your heart decides whom you want in life..
but your behavior decides
who will stay in your life...

You can win life by all means..
And Yes.. If you simply avoid two things...
1. COMPARING - with others
2. EXPECTING FOR MORE - from others

Life will eventually be more beautiful!

September 2010

September is really a busy month for me.

Lots and lots of things to do this month.

Work schedule. Datelines to meet.

Not to forget about events, birthdays and weddings that needed to attend.

Festive days of Hari Raya also falls on this month.

Really a pack schedule this month.

But what's best about this month is my BIRTHDAY falls on this month too. :)